the adventures of pamalicious

The sun was shining on my face as I stood in the driveway this morning and even though it was a bit nippy outside - I had this feeling of euphoria come over me.  It IS truly special to be alive!  To be a part of this big picture.  To live is cool, but to be ALIVE is something else.  It made me think about what keeps folks wanting to live.  What is it that motivates you to feel the blessing of life and do the best you can to show your appreciate for the gift of life - because it’s not your right and as we know folks challenge it and push the envelope on it all the time.

I’d love to see some of your reasons and they don’t have to be deep, they don’t have to be profound or spiritual in nature - just what triggers you to LIVE!

(in no particular order)

1.  To see my Grand babies

2.  To see what could possibly be the final Mike J & his brothers concert

3.  To see mini-me go to the prom

4.  To see my mom’s face when she see’s her first Great Grand Child

5.  To be a part of a mass family healing

6.  To one day see a stomach with no rolls

7.  Muscadine Season

8.  Mothers Day

9.  Week long cruises

10.  Shopping

11.  Plaques on the walls with Educational Degrees

12.  Because they keep making….SHOES!

13.  There might be a Black President (or Vice President) one day

14.  My lottery numbers might hit

15.  Rap Music might get relevant again

16.  Black People might actually have quality TV and be on quality TV

17.  Sindbad’s Old School Concerts might come back

18.  My mom might get the accolades she deserves

19.  I might actually write a book

20.  Bouquets of fresh flowers - so what they die - I LOVE THEM!

21.  Hearing your JAM and it take you to all sorts of wonderful memories

22.  Waking up next to Caun

23.  I have so much more to learn

24.  Because I want to go over and remember my past

25.  Anticipating the greatness that will be Mini-me

 

 

 

With the push of the SUBMIT button at 7:25pm est on Monday, April 14, 2008 I have officially completed the necessary credits (120) with passing grades to qualify and receive my Bachelors of Arts in Organizational Management from Ashford University.

 

I began this journey after being out of the formal education loop for over exactly 20 years in January 2006 - (two weeks before I met Caun).  I had an Associates Degree under my belt, but it had no specific direction.  As part of my doing big things as I turn 40 and a need to show my daughter the importance of education and commitment even as an adult - I embarked on finishing school. 

 

I’d like to thank my momma, because she had stressed for years about me going back to school, but I have to do things when my own desire arises, yet she planted the seed to change the direction of our family. 

Like a classic UNCF moment, I am the first on her side of the family to get a college degree.

Graduation ceremonies take place May 10th in Clinton, Iowa. I won’t be attending - yet my heart will be in it and I know I will feel a shiver as they read my name.

The education bug has struck me and on May 27th I will be going back to get my Masters - expected date of Graduation?  Winter 2009.

Don’t ever think that your time has passed, as long as you have God’s gift of time - make it count!  A lot of my dreams are coming true in my 40’s what if I had of said - it was over for me?  What if I thought I was too old, too fat, too black or too female or too set in my ways?  NO WAY!  What I am is:

too Fabulous,

too beautiful,

too smart

too vivacious!!

 

I have been humming the tune from Mahogany lately because it pretty much sums up how I feel sometimes.  I have no idea where I am going.  I never have.  I just…go. 

It has started to move to the forefront of my mind again because of this college education I’m acquiring.  There is going to be more and more conversation about what exactly do I plan to DO with these degrees because by the time I finish up next winter - I will have three.  As I said before I began this journey, I DON’T KNOW.

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I lost a friend.  Not in the way of death, but sometimes when there is a change the feeling is similar if not almost the same.  I don’t have a lot of friends as it is and I’ve spoken about that on this here page - so to lose one, especially in the manner that I did hit hard. 

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I cried this morning.  Not shoulder wracking soul quenching tears, but that steady stream that came down in sync to the rain outside my truck window.  Take yourself back to being 8, you were in a deep sleep and then here comes your momma talking about get up.  You open your eyes and the frustration of breaking your sleep and being on someone elses time overtakes you and you cry out:  I don’t want to go!!!  Well grow it up and there you have it.

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