the adventures of pamalicious

 

Hey everybody!  I know I know I’ve just been in another world lately and blogging has kinda floated around in my head but not actually hit the page, lol lol 

How you be?  I’m fine thanks for asking.  I’ve had to restructure my time to spend a lot more time with the child.  She got all this stuff coming up. 8th grade dance, picnics, etc. A couple of hair dos etc. I need to get her dress for graduation.  Just filled out camp forms and transfer papers for her as well  She got accepted to the cities counselors in training program after one heck of an interview. Its from June 9th-July 11th. One week intensive training an overnight rafting trip in So Carolina and then 5 weeks as a Jr camp counselor.  Should be fun, by the time she’s 16 she can counsel or pay.  Good deal!

Then she is in the middle of her first crush. Lawd its gonna kill me. Yes this is going to be the death of me. He’s a nice young man captain of the football team and all that jazz, but this whole thing is new and its like I have been traveling up the roller coaster and bam!  Here we go over the edge. Now more than ever I am spending time talking to her interacting with her relating stories of my youth. Keeping her engaged. Its hard not to just freak out cop an attitude and what not, but that’s fear and I can’t be afraid. I just take it one day at a time. Caun and I talk to make sure we aren’t giving mixed messages and we just try to not freak out, lol We smile a lot and try to make her feel comfortable talking about what her and her friends are doing. I told her I know it’s wonderful and the feeling is great, but like I told you when you started to menstruate - it means your body is capable of conceiving/nurturing and birthing a baby, but your PERSON is not emotionally, mentally ready for the consequences of that action. Same thing with boys. Your biological response to the wonders of boys does not mean you are READY for the consequences.

My sew-in quest continues, sigh. I ended up hearing very bad things about one place. So I’m a keep it stepping. I will find someone. I want someone actively working in a salon or with established clientele. Dammit for not having a hairstylist. Imma touchup the front half of my head in anticipation and just let it be while I continue to look.  I think I found someone - her portfolio is fierce and her prices are reasonable in my mind. The $50 sew in’s scare me, lol 

I am enjoying not having school. But I’m looking forward to going back.  Things are poppin off in my professional life and I’m slowly but quite confidently moving forward in my personal development. I’ll speak about that sometime next week. It was good stuff.

So anyhoo - I just wanted to check in.  I have been reading folks as always and I gotta go back and comment on some stuff cause ya’ll a wild bunch, lol

The sun was shining on my face as I stood in the driveway this morning and even though it was a bit nippy outside - I had this feeling of euphoria come over me.  It IS truly special to be alive!  To be a part of this big picture.  To live is cool, but to be ALIVE is something else.  It made me think about what keeps folks wanting to live.  What is it that motivates you to feel the blessing of life and do the best you can to show your appreciate for the gift of life - because it’s not your right and as we know folks challenge it and push the envelope on it all the time.

I’d love to see some of your reasons and they don’t have to be deep, they don’t have to be profound or spiritual in nature - just what triggers you to LIVE!

(in no particular order)

1.  To see my Grand babies

2.  To see what could possibly be the final Mike J & his brothers concert

3.  To see mini-me go to the prom

4.  To see my mom’s face when she see’s her first Great Grand Child

5.  To be a part of a mass family healing

6.  To one day see a stomach with no rolls

7.  Muscadine Season

8.  Mothers Day

9.  Week long cruises

10.  Shopping

11.  Plaques on the walls with Educational Degrees

12.  Because they keep making….SHOES!

13.  There might be a Black President (or Vice President) one day

14.  My lottery numbers might hit

15.  Rap Music might get relevant again

16.  Black People might actually have quality TV and be on quality TV

17.  Sindbad’s Old School Concerts might come back

18.  My mom might get the accolades she deserves

19.  I might actually write a book

20.  Bouquets of fresh flowers - so what they die - I LOVE THEM!

21.  Hearing your JAM and it take you to all sorts of wonderful memories

22.  Waking up next to Caun

23.  I have so much more to learn

24.  Because I want to go over and remember my past

25.  Anticipating the greatness that will be Mini-me

 

 

 

With the push of the SUBMIT button at 7:25pm est on Monday, April 14, 2008 I have officially completed the necessary credits (120) with passing grades to qualify and receive my Bachelors of Arts in Organizational Management from Ashford University.

 

I began this journey after being out of the formal education loop for over exactly 20 years in January 2006 - (two weeks before I met Caun).  I had an Associates Degree under my belt, but it had no specific direction.  As part of my doing big things as I turn 40 and a need to show my daughter the importance of education and commitment even as an adult - I embarked on finishing school. 

 

I’d like to thank my momma, because she had stressed for years about me going back to school, but I have to do things when my own desire arises, yet she planted the seed to change the direction of our family. 

Like a classic UNCF moment, I am the first on her side of the family to get a college degree.

Graduation ceremonies take place May 10th in Clinton, Iowa. I won’t be attending - yet my heart will be in it and I know I will feel a shiver as they read my name.

The education bug has struck me and on May 27th I will be going back to get my Masters - expected date of Graduation?  Winter 2009.

Don’t ever think that your time has passed, as long as you have God’s gift of time - make it count!  A lot of my dreams are coming true in my 40’s what if I had of said - it was over for me?  What if I thought I was too old, too fat, too black or too female or too set in my ways?  NO WAY!  What I am is:

too Fabulous,

too beautiful,

too smart

too vivacious!!

 

I have been humming the tune from Mahogany lately because it pretty much sums up how I feel sometimes.  I have no idea where I am going.  I never have.  I just…go. 

It has started to move to the forefront of my mind again because of this college education I’m acquiring.  There is going to be more and more conversation about what exactly do I plan to DO with these degrees because by the time I finish up next winter - I will have three.  As I said before I began this journey, I DON’T KNOW.

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Hey folks!  How was your weekend?  Were you one of the ones that was snowed in up to your neck?!  Mannn this is nothing but Global Warming - the weather is crazy.  We went from like 69 degrees to snow showers the next morning. Give me a break!

I know I wasn’t the only one that woke up this morning confused, in the dark and having overslept, lol lol  For some reason I didn’t get enough warning about the time change.  My body didn’t have any time to adjust.

I can’t even really remember what exactly did I do this weekend but sleep.  I felt…old this weekend. I just wanted to lay around and watch episodes of Flip this and Flip that house.  Throw in some Gene Simmons Family Jewels and I was set.  I think that my body knew that it needed to reserve because a project is on the way big time.

So after my last class my GPA jumped to 3.38.  I am quite happy about that. I wanted a nice cushion going into my masters program full time.  This class is tricky because the assignments are written in the familiar and beg you to expound from a personal nature - but you can’t fool me. I was one of four students who was singled out for doing the work CORRECTLY and wrapping it back up in the academic of the book. YEA BABY!  I am liking school at this point.  FIVE WEEKS and I’m done with the Bachelors.  I brought home a class ring brochure from Wall mart this weekend.  I didn’t get one in HS, but I intend to get one for my right hand.  I saw a nice one with small diamonds I have my eye on. 

So in the ever evolving adventure of the Magnegroes - we looked up not to long ago and realized that we had run out of space.  I know I know - but we got stuff, lol  So there was conversation since Mini-me is on her way to HS (out the district) and with BCPC coming every weekend and probably for the summer - the office space and her bedroom sharing had gotten old fast.  We had no plans to do anything about it, just conversation aloud. 

Well a couple of weekends we decided to look into neighborhoods that would get us a bit farther out of the hood (yea I said it, time to kinda move a bit more on the outskirts) and into a bigger space.  Still no plans, just enjoying a Saturday looking at homes. 

Introducing Our New Home:

4 Bedrooms/2.5 Baths, 2 wood burning fireplaces, LR, DR, Kitchen, Den, Deck, Fire pit, 2 car garage and my beloved porch. In a Cul de Sac, two blocks from the Lake in what has been known to be a majority toubob neighborhood.  Huge Home - reminded us of the Brady Bunch home, only $100 more than we pay now.  I had renamed Caun "Walter Lee" cause we were about to be "A Raisin in the Sun" on the real.  We get to the designated spot to speak with the Landlord (yes we are renters because our credit is fucked, we like being able to be flexible and it works for us at this time)  and who was sitting up in there but A BROTHER, lol lol lol  He has the distinction of being one of the first three families that bought in this community in ‘75 (which is what gave us the Brady Bunch feel) and so everything went smoothly and we move it the middle of next month…God Willing (cause something might happen never know - I’m just claiming it now since that really seems to work). 

Our Adventure continues.  Our Adventure continues.