SIGH
sigh….I am in a place of frustration, depression and stress. My shoulders are so stiff they are physically hurting (I carry my stress in my shoulders and back). I sleep but I’m not really sleeping. My weight has remained static cause I eat to stay alive, lol Luckily, I’ve moved beyond eating the stress away in my life.
You know the thing about when you are going through stress and depression - most of us have to remain in our lives. There is no check out point. Especially women, we have to keep going and keep interacting etc. It is HARD!! This is where marriage becomes interesting, because as a single woman. I could check out - come home and just get in the bed, Sakinah would eat a Kids Cuisine and be fine, but noooo.
Last night I got some news that just added one more crinkle in my forehead, so I took a let me get out of here trip to the Walmart. I was there for a minute and then went to driving around to nowhere (which in iteself with the way gas is is crazy) and decided I wanted to just go and eat me something by myself but the phone rang and BCPC wanted to know when was I coming home she didn’t want to eat with out me. What the hell are you suppose to do, but suck it up and go eat with your family?
Life is really a roller coaster and right now I feel like I’m getting my head kicked off on the Batman Ride (ok Pam that was tacky - may he rest in peace).
Also are you like me and seek out worse situations to bring yours back in perspective? I can admit I do that - cause in reality my shit is bad to ME, others probably are like "Pam sit yo spoiled, attention whore ass down somewhere with that SELF INFLICTED mess". I know this, but isn’t a lot of our stresses things WE stress about that are relevant to us? It can sometimes be a lonely journey.
So yea I haven’t had anything witty to say. I need to get me a journal so badly. I haven’t written in awhile and I think I need to just write some stuff down. I probably need a good cry as well - but crying is hard for me to come by. What I need to do is STOP TRIPPIN! With all the stuff that is going on - it’s all about inconvenience and me not being able to do all the ‘extra’ I wanna do. As well as I am one who when in something I can’t see out of it - it all just looks so damn cloudy which makes me stress out more.
S-T-R-E-S-S!!!
What are some of your stress relief tips?

Jaila Says:
stress relief tips:
lots and lots of sex but thats just me lol
a fukitol pill works wonders
Kat Williams said he knew of something that grows from the earth that works wonders when set on fire.
Change your focus (if u can). U focusing on what you can’t do and what you don’t have. Switch it up and jump on that look at what I do have bandwagon. Does wonders when you take stock in what you DO have versus what you dont
but u knew that already
Posted on July 10th, 2008 at 1:36 pm
Ondrea Says:
I agree with Jaila…focus on what you do have. That degree, a GREAT husband, 2 GREAT kids…a job to go to, a roof over your head…you know those things we all tend to take for granted.
Posted on July 11th, 2008 at 6:08 am
Monica C. Says:
Stress relief:
1. Music - I put on the Erykah Badu and just try to forget, LOL.
2. Pray, pray, pray
3. Try to mentally entice myself - think about good things coming up on the horizon. Sometimes that works, sometimes it doesn’t.
4. Try to hurry up and get some sleep, so I can wake up to a new day!
Posted on July 11th, 2008 at 12:33 pm
nikki indigo Says:
1. find a way to work out, either by walking or hitting the gym. it helps by giving me an outlet for the frustration and the time alone doing a mindless activity also helps.
2. meditation.
3. decluttering the house. or at the very least, find a spot that belongs only to you in the house (or designate a spot). that’s the place only you have permission to go to and nobody else can invade. EVER.
Posted on July 11th, 2008 at 5:28 pm
ChezNiki Says:
Okay so, do you want the methods that involve alcohol, and shopping or not? (smile)
-Bubblebaths
-Music, something hard and banging with a strong beat, Gangsta Rap, Rock or Contemporary Gospel
-Dark Chocolate
-KavaKava Tea with Honey and (soy) milk
-Cleaning
-Planning/ Internet Research
-Jigsaw Puzzle
Hang in there, Gurl. This too shall pass.
“It will all be okay in the end. If its not okay, its not the end.”
Posted on July 12th, 2008 at 7:09 pm
Pamalicious Says:
I want to thank you all for your suggestions and just the love of the blog sisterhood.
Posted on July 12th, 2008 at 7:31 pm