the adventures of pamalicious

I started drinking as soon as I got in the house. I was (and on some level still am) having a hard time wrapping my mind around the concept that I was deemed not qualifed enough to basically do the same fucking job I currently have.  I still have the handprint of that slap on my face.  Anyhoo - it was a turbulant evening and I chose to build me a liquor armour.  I slept peacefully by the time the lights were out.  I awoke this morning, undecided about how I should make my day go, then I heard a word……..

MAMASAYMAMASAHMAMACOOSAH!!

TODAY IS MICHAEL JACKSON’S BIRTHDAY!

HAPPY 49TH BIRTHDAY MIKE!

As I danced around my living room to the 7:00 o’clock morning mix - the clouds started lifting and everything all of a sudden was gonna be alright.  As song after song played all the bullshit ran off into the gutters of life and I began standing on solid ground again. 

I swear I will keep this short and to the point. Michael Jackson, His Brothers and Sisters for that matter have been thru my entire life with me. I don’t necessarily identify with the ‘typical’ fan because it’s about the music for me. I can recognize that Mike has some issues etc. but his music DOESN’T, and that’s what I focus on now as an adult; but let’s go back to when I was into the MAN, lol. I think he is responsible for the ‘romantic dellusions’ I have today, lol My entire room as a teenager, was covered with pictures of him. I had diaries devoted to him, letters I wrote weekly, the record player with his face on it and an undying passion to be his wife,lol.

Part of my popularity in late elementary school and early High School was the FIVE VOLUME fairytale that I had written chronicling our life from him meeting me at 16 to us celebrating our 25 wedding anniversary and everything in between. I would hold ‘readings’ such as they do today, where girls and guys would gather while I read aloud all of our exploits. Five - five subject composition books full of our life, oh and by the time I hit 12, our passionate sex, lol lol I was a PIONEER in EROTIC WRITING, lol lol

When ‘Destiny’ came out the album cover was a fold out. Mike was at one end and Randy was at the other. I learned about kissing from that album cover. My girlfriend and I would put that record on and as we sat and listened we would ‘make out’ with them. She was into Randy because I didn’t associate with anyone that was into Mike, lol lol I have that cover still and their lips are kissed off, lol

There was a song for EVERYTHING that was ever going on in my life, lol lol As my young adult angst went to an all time high - HE was there, (shit he’s STILL there). No matter who I was in love with that week (lol) Mike was the one who could sing about it and make me feel good or better. Parent problems, eventually He covered that for me as well, job issues - He got that covered, stupid negro issues - He always has that covered, Orgasmic heights of bliss, he got that too.

When I see him perform, even in his current ‘condition’ a few things happen. I get extremely hot and have to take my clothes off and I get woozy. This is no lie, ask Mini-me, lol. When the CBS special came out, I stripped and got right in front of the TV and passed out. You might even be able to ask “Janet” about that. I can cut that special on today and I’ll sit there and swear it won’t get to me and it does, lol

So now I’m 41, a grown woman, with a few miles of yardage on my heart, but still Mike does and will always be the ’soundtrack of MY Life’.

I met the man of my dreams and we married in January of this year and as I walked down the aisle to “One Day In Your Life” and as I walked out married to “Can You Feel It” I know that Mike will continue to be - Just Another Part of me.