the adventures of pamalicious

Happy Memorial Day!

Memorial Day 2007.  I hope that we all, in the middle of that que, take a moment to remember this is about the soldiers that are over there fighting. I can’t honestly say that I believe this fight is about perserving our freedom and liberities, so I’ll just say take a moment to think about the peeps all over the world serving on behalf of this country.

In a few hours we’ll be heading out to the Crab Boil at “Janets”.  Goddess is upstairs beginning to prep cause yes it’s 11:51 am as I type this and it’s gonna take her that long to put on her jeans, lol  Caun has left on a bike adventure.  Folks, know that he’s such a good man to me and mine and such a giver, that when he starts to want something - I move things around so that he can get them.  Well he wanted a mountain bike.  All people need their space to get inside their heads - especially men. How can the plan sanely for our futures if they don’t have the space to do that.  So he got the mountain bike and he’s off somewhere in Decatur.  I am watching the food network and salivating at the entire BBQ series.  Lawd have mercy!

I feel like I’m coming up out of my uncertainity I have been feeling these last few days.  I don’t have any idea what exactly my calling is.  Yes I’m about to be 41 - but I am just hitting my stride. Some folks say it’s writing, but I can’t honestly say it is, since I can’t seem to figure out how to put out words that will get me money, lol lol.  I feel like I should just give my words away for free - Go figure! I will discover it though, I really will.

I was about to start letting the family get on my nerves; but decided against it.  I am finding that as my life has moved into the direction it’s moved; I don’t have the same kind of time I used to have to ‘check in’.  However, in not checking in - I discovered that I was doing all the checkin in. Nobody calls me from the North. NOBODY! and when I do the conversations are very short and there are words that sound like “well since you got a husband and a life, I don’t call because I don’t like to be interrupted”  SIGH. 

See, I am a leech of sorts; I will join onto someone else freedom and strength and it makes me stronger.  When I am floating alone - they can get to me.  However, I’ve plugged into a big ole rock of strength, so it ain’t even the same.  Therefore, if I can’t be influenced or made to feel like my shit is shaky; then there really ain’t but so much to talk about.  SIGH.  Sad but true. 

Hmmm - this post ain’t even a musing, lol  It’s a rambling, lol.  See this is what blogs are good for.  Why start bitching to my friends, I’ve reached my quota and why bitch to my man - he don’t even know all the history and I’ve made it a point to give him the executive summary only - so I can come here and type it and then move the fuck on.  Yep that’s one good reason to blog!

Well let me go and make sure the pony I washed last night is dry and ready to be plopped on my head.  Talk to ya’ll tomorrow!