Pot Shots
Hmmm - I am 14 days out from my birthday, so I guess I am going through a purging moment as I approach 41. I am slipping into reflective mode and looking at where I’ve been, where I’m at and where I need to be about a lot of things. So I am calling this one pot shots - because they aren’t really complete thoughts but thoughts nonetheless, lol Ya’ll know me, I always got about 20 things rambling in my head.
The question asked of me wayy to early this morning:
Why do you think females are weaker today? Do you think it’s because there are not many eligible men available, so they tend to dummy up for the ones that are available?
My response: First let’s get this straight - there are also not alot of eligible women availalbe either. I don’t think it’s necessarily about women being ‘weaker’ but moreso women being ’slicker’. I think that alot of women have thrown their ethical and moral foundations out the window. That whole ‘we are the backbone’ of the nation’ has definately backfired. The main reason being that anyone of my generation hasn’t been the backbone of shit. Our mothers maybe, but not us. We are the ‘mothers’ of the selfishness era and we have produced alot of unproductive confused selfish little children. We bit a big bite of that speech (when it didn’t even apply to us) and misconstrued it and now we are all about us because we ‘tired’ and we ‘have had enough’ and we ‘have carried it all for so long’. So alot of us are out to get ours by whatever means necessary - Um you might wanna give Malcolm back his words as well - it ain’t apply to us either, lol
- After I finish this six pack of Corona, I won’t be buying anymore beer for the house. Why? Because Goddess is uncomfortable with it. See, I’m a drinker, but I’ve always been a frilly drinker, it’s been in everything from koolaid to lemonade and therefore it hasn’t been an in your face affair. Well me pulling out a beer and drinking it…is. As a parent, I can do what I want, but I also don’t want to make my daughter uncomfortable about my choices - so I’ll be retiring that and going back to my hidden drinking, lol lol
- Do people ever really listen to themselves? I’ve seen some instances lately where someone has said something that ended up causing blood to pour from my bottom lip from biting my tongue. Um there’s a reason why you don’t see the wrong or how it is not right or how folks are turned off.
- When folks say never say never - is that an excuse to cover up their inabilty to say never? Is this a morality issue? I mean when I go over the things I have said, Nah I’ll never participate in - well dammit it then becomes ingrained in my psyche and I don’t allow myself to be enticed by it. So I’ve said Never to: threesomes, being involved with a married man, having a one night stand, cheating on my mate and THESE ARE THINGS I AM NOT DOING! I stand by my commitment to not do these things and I don’t see a situation where all of a sudden, it overwelms me and I fall victim to it. I’m a damn adult - it can’t possibly be that hard. That whole “don’t say never, you never know what you may end up doing” Um guess what - I got some sprinkling of an idea!
- To anybody this might apply to: A young girl (I’m speaking between 2-grown) exhibiting neck rolling and other unfortunately labeled ’sistagal’ actions is NOT CUTE. It never has been! Civilized society is not going to embrace your child with that type of behavior. Having a ‘free spirit’ and being a savage are two totally different things. While you are deeming that this is cute and look at her go - teachers, principals, bus driver and others are NOT SMILING. And to all the parents who are promoting this, taping it for You Tube, piting their children against their other parent, coming with six levels of prime grade A bullshit - NIGGA BOOOOOOOOOOOO!! (oops I mean MUTHAFUCKA BOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!)
- I have ALOT of issues about the subject of organized religion and one day I will probably go into it, but at minimum can’t nobody say that I have folded back upon myself about it. What I mean is - I was to the left and I have stayed to the left. I have not tried to fake it for the benefit of my child and then we have this big backslide looking all crazy to my child and thus confusing her further. Which is why I have just remained neutral. Do I think this has been damaging to her? Yea on a certain level, especially coming from where I come from - but the truth of the matter is, when I look out my eyes at what I see, we are no different than every other fucked up family out there. So to walk around chest poked out like what I know makes me better ain’t working - hell my peeps in alot of instances are worse, lol So I’m not sure if it worked or how it set us apart from everyone else - thus I ain’t about to weave that magical tale of how we better. I certainly wasn’t going to launch off on this great religious dedication and look up beer in hand, cussing, shorts on, eyes a blue eyeshadow glittering and say “but you should be doing this” Don’t feel right to me and I think I would be looked at harsher in the long run. We got belief in God, we got spirituality and we got peace - working just fine.
Ok, let me get a drink of water - I’m parched - ya’ll be easy.
